A Jumble of Thoughts

If you want to read about the adventures of a confident and put-together young woman, then please, skip this post. I have a lot of thoughts zooming through my brain and I need to get them out. I warn you now potential and past employers or professors.

Panic

This is my most prevalent emotion. I have been going to sleep later and later every night this week. I doubt I will sleep much tomorrow night (I am that person who can't sleep the night before the first day of school/something else that is important). I have a little over 24 hours to finish packing everything. And then I have to weigh it to make sure my suitcase is under 50 lbs. Packing overwhelms me. I have avoided completing my packing list because I keep getting stuck on quantities. That, and I thought I could just wing it. Throw the stuff I like into my suitcase and then take stuff out in order to make it weigh less. And then I should double check that I have everything. And then I have to spend as much time with my parents as possible. I do not usually get homesick, but I already miss them. Why does going far away make everything harder?

Confusion

Someone gave me advice today. Really, my parents asked him to give me/them advice today. He told me common sense things that I was already planning on doing anyway. At first I was disappointed. After all, what's the point in receiving advice from someone older if it's not new or insightful beyond what I had already thought? But I couldn't ask for him to try again. That would be rude. Instead, I flipped my thinking. I took his words as an confirmation of my own beliefs. It's always good to be reminded that I am on the right track.

Agitation

I wanted to be finished packing by now. I wanted to clean my room over break. I had plenty of time, so why are neither of these things done? 

Excitement

For most of the past few months, I have been excited. I know I am going to have a wonderful time. I know I am going to improve my Spanish and learn new things and get lost and meet people who will change my life.